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Thursday, August 16, 2012
Meaning and Happiness
In less than two weeks I'll be in high school, it's a big step for me, I'm anxious, in fact a little more than I let on. Over the last three or so months I spent a lot of time alone. Most of my friends were gone, on vacation, moved, in summer camps, etc. I felt like it was wasted, I was running in circles, going no where fast. I hated every minute of it. It was so uneventful, so boring, it was useless, like I lost three nonths I'll never get back.
During school, I spent a lot of time stressed, headaches, freaking out, emotional breakdowns, things like that, and over the summer I realized, that being bored, only gives you the time to think about the fact that your going to feel that way agian. At least thats how it is with me. I also thought a lot about my future, and what I'm going to do for high school, college, and beyond. In fact I even considered not going to college. I think the big thing is that I'm lonely, in the spiritual and physical sense. I've only had one girlfriend, and I screwed it up miserably. In the spirtuatual sense, alow me to explain like this. I look at people in an interesting way. I usually think of people as simple minded. Here's an analogy most people see life as a pirade, always moving up the street, looking at it from the side. Me, I see the parade, and I pay attention to what direction it takMeaI don't like to think about how my life will turn out, but I just want a good one. A wise man once said, you can either have a life of meaning, or a life of happiness, never both. Most people try to obtain both, and fail miserably but people who understand this concept usually go for meaning. Me personally, I prefer happiness.
During school, I spent a lot of time stressed, headaches, freaking out, emotional breakdowns, things like that, and over the summer I realized, that being bored, only gives you the time to think about the fact that your going to feel that way agian. At least thats how it is with me. I also thought a lot about my future, and what I'm going to do for high school, college, and beyond. In fact I even considered not going to college. I think the big thing is that I'm lonely, in the spiritual and physical sense. I've only had one girlfriend, and I screwed it up miserably. In the spirtuatual sense, alow me to explain like this. I look at people in an interesting way. I usually think of people as simple minded. Here's an analogy most people see life as a pirade, always moving up the street, looking at it from the side. Me, I see the parade, and I pay attention to what direction it takMeaI don't like to think about how my life will turn out, but I just want a good one. A wise man once said, you can either have a life of meaning, or a life of happiness, never both. Most people try to obtain both, and fail miserably but people who understand this concept usually go for meaning. Me personally, I prefer happiness.
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